The summary of the life I'm living now:
- Getting more comfortable and less irritable.
Sure, less people to deal with. I am naturally an introvert. I dislike being around many people because people = potential conflicts/problems so more people = more conflicts. So, it's good that I have the choice to be with whomever I feel comfortable to be with. And that I get to spend quality time alone in my room without the pressure to go out and mingle, LOL.
- Less inspired to get out of this comfort zone.
I even had the thought of staying in GM until I got promoted to UF 44, which will be in January 2018, insya Allah. Why? Surely, this new place has some problems of its own, mainly dealing with the lackadaisical system and attitudes of the people here. But when I was reminded of those turbulent times of my hell-ish and depressing PRP year, I quickly stopped complaining. Life was much harder back then. With that, I begin to accept the fact that there is NO perfect place or a perfect job in this world. Even if I got transferred to my own hometown, I might encounter a more unpleasant batch of people/coworkers there. It's mind over matters. I can't change other people's attitudes but I surely have the power to change my own perspectives on various things.
- Feeling more excited with my job.
I was scared shitless during my IPD rotations in H**. I was constantly nervous of making mistakes, especially during my first rotation. And I was scared of the boss there, who had constantly threatened to extend me because I couldn't remember the dose of drugs and identifying the so-called basic polypharmacy. But things had gotten better during my 2nd rotation there, which was also my final rotation as a PRP. Right after I officially became a 'floater', I actually got disappointed knowing that I had to 'float' in OPD, pfftt. I hate OPD.
And in GM, I am a ward pharmacist, or sometimes referred by the more glamorous term- a clinical pharmacist (if you have a Masters degree in Clinical Pharmacy, insya Allah, working towards it! ). I love going for ward rounds, interacting with the doctors and nurses in my ward. They are super friendly! And nothing beats the excitement you felt when you detected some errors in the doctors' prescriptions, LOL. You made interventions that could save a patient's life and even improving their conditions!
Plus, I have this trait that I had not realized before, until someone pointed it out to me. I do have that degree of nerdiness in me. I am obsessed with statistics, of achieving the minimum requirements of things I have to do or even surpassing them! The Pharmacy Department of GM had always been looked down by the pharmacists from other hospital. We were not that active in our job, as evident by the statistics we had sent them every year. Well, this year, they are going to be surprised. I am trying my best to do whatever I could to develop the Clinical Pharmacy service in this hospital, I am going to send them a really awesome statistics that no other district hospitals had ever sent them before. I am going to prove to them that GM pharmacists are every bit as awesome as they think they are (LOL, as if!). And during the meetings, I am going to promote my hospital. Don't you dare to look down on GM. But for these first 3 months, I started out late as a ward pharmacist. So I couldn't really achieve the target (and prepared to get scolded, LOL). But just you wait, October, November and December!
Oh yes, back to the story. I had this thought of staying here until UF44 because even if I managed to return to my hometown after a year here, I'm afraid that I might get posted to Klinik Kesihatan somewhere remote and deserted, with only one Pharmacist and one Penolong Pegawai Farmasi,and I don't like working in OPD. Clinical Pharmacy is my passion, even though I'm not that good in it.
Plus, there is another possibility that even if I got posted to a hospital, a big hospital, the KPF might just put me in OPD or worse, STORE.
- Gaining weight.
This, with every intention to go and play badminton at the court every night, (after getting inspired by Goh Liu Ying and Liliyana Natsir! hahahaha) without actually doing it. I lost 6 kg during my PRP year and it seems like I had gained more than 6 kg after I had started my FRP life. Haha.
- Falling in love with Park Bo Gum.
He's so cute!!!! (It's okay Joong Ki! You'll always be in my heart ) So what if he's 3 years younger than me? Love knows no barriers!
All righty. Bye!
