Robotic Android

Taken from here 

"While other would come to the class without their homework done because they were reading about an interest of theirs, I never missed an assignment" 

LOL HEYYY I read about my wide range of interests most of the time as well, but then again, I'd never failed to submit my assignments/lab reports ON TIME too! 

I get it, he's a robot. Hehh.... 

Dr Whodoodle

My personal best score so far with the initial selection of David Tennant as the 10th Doctor who made it through all the 'adventures' with NO REGENERATION!!! xD (I hate the graveyard scene)

I reckon I could get a higher score but I have other things to do... 

Till then, who-dles!!! 

of Relationship with Him...

Thinking about my life throughout these years from the moment I've been introduced into this world and until now, I realized that Allah really loves me so much. He had given me a wonderful family with healthy/amazing parents and siblings, I am born without any mental or physical disabilities, I am bestowed with the gift of a good brain (only that I do not fully utilize it and that is entirely my fault, haha) that I could pursue my studies up to the tertiary level. I am so blessed! You know, out of 7 billion world population, he had picked me to be amongst the fortunate ones, giving me everything that I need, and of course it is for a solid reason.

Now,what have I done so far to reciprocate His love towards me? I know that with all the good things he had given me, there must be something that He wished I would think and reflect of. The 'good things' served to ease my path towards what had been written for me. Everything is ready, but it is me who is not moving. 

Perhaps because I am being complacent. Unlike Malala Yousafzai, education was given to me instead of me seeking for it. I was born in a country which emphasizes on the importance of education (especially for women) instead of the one which banned the education for girls and women. I am so ashamed with myself.

The best thing to do right now is to focus on my relationship with Allah. I must please Allah in every aspect, in every single moment in my life. Whenever I am about to do something, I would ask myself "Would Allah approve of this?". I fully realized the importance of a strong relationship with my Creator. He is the Provider, the Compeller, the Bestower of Peace, the Bestower of Honour, the Protector, and soo many other attributes from all the 99 of His beautiful and magnificent names (Asma al Husna). 

As for now, I have found the answer to my question. How could I reach the place which He wanted me to go? That place is Jannah of course. 

The answer is straightforward, simple and that everyone knows about it, but not everyone realizes the importance of it: To do everything sincerely because of Him. 

When I attempt to please Allah, I would work hard, solely because of Him, and not because of other non-powerful human beings. I would not do anything that could invoke His wrath, as this could damage our relationship. I've just realized that whenever I had done something bad (and that I feel veerrryyy bad afterwards), He does not directly punish me. He loves me so much that He wanted me to repent to Him. 

I admit that there were times when my imaan was up and down, and when I was in the 'down moment', I feel so lonely and helpless. There is this hole in my heart that can't filled with anything else other than my love towards Allah. I want to love Him again, I want to experience the feeling of being in love with Him, again, just like during my 'up moments'. And so, I went back towards His embrace, and I feel ashamed with myself, for doing this over and over again. But I am reminded of the fact that I am not a prophet or a messenger. I am just a human being that is not maksum (pure/free from sin). I know that Allah wanted me to go back towards Him, just like a loving mother who would always welcome her children no matter what wrong things they had committed. 

So, let's just please Allah and no one else. Human beings would never be pleased. Allah looks at our efforts while the humans judge us by our achievements/results.
Memorize the meanings of the 99 names of Allah. He has ALL the attributes of which if you really understand each one of them, it would help you survive in this temporary, imperfect world. 

With that, may peace be upon you and may you have a great blessed day ahead! :) 

The Queen of Procrastination and Procrastinators.

Indeed, I am THE CLEANER, THE LIST MAKER, THE NAPPER, THE SIDE TRACKER, THE INTERNET RESEARCHER, THE WATCHER AND THE PERPETUATOR! HAHAHA

From 9gag.com 

End of Rehab

I had forgotten to post about my 7 days twitter addiction rehab programme.

Well, it's over! Yaay! I am so proud of myself for being able to resist the temptation of tweeting and even opening the twitter tab, haha.

One important thing that I have learned from this 7 Days rehab is: "It is not necessary to let most of your thoughts known to other people". 

Anyway, thoughts I have been saving throughout the duration of the Rehab (most of them Random, it is soo me): 

1. Saw an old lady selling kerepek in front of A&W. She seemed so pitiful and she looked at me with her pleading eyes, asking me to buy her kerepek. I told her to wait first, as I'm gonna go inside to buy burger and drinks. Then I munched on my burger, talking to my friends at the same time thinking about that old lady. I took a peek outside and found that she was still there. There was a well-dressed woman buying kerepek from the old lady. I smiled and went ahead talking to my friends, deciding to buy kerepek from her as soon as I stepped out from A&W. But alas, as my friends and I went out from the fast food restaurant, the old lady was nowhere to be seen. I was quite sad and regretted my decision of not buying the kerepek from her earlier. I vowed to buy kerepek from her on Thursday, where I'll be going to the Kemaman Hospital again for attachment. I prayed that I will meet that old lady again. But when I went there again, the old lady was not there. I am sad. The moral of the story is, when there comes a chance for you to do good to others, GRAB that chance, never let it go! Or else you'll regret it, just like me. I don't know why, I have soft spots towards the elderly and small kids, perhaps because the geriatric people remind me of my late grandmothers, and small kids remind me of my little brother Haziq.

2. The physicians handwritings at Hospital Kemaman are WAYYYY BETTER than the ugly handwritings of the physicians from HTAA. HTAA suffocates me with its crowded wards and MOs/specialists yelling to the HOs during ward rounds. The pharmacists at HTAA are very good and experienced, but they could be too strict somehow. I dislike it when a person corrected the mistakes of another person in a not-so-nice way. I mean come on, we're learning! 

3.  I used to hate it whenever someone pointed out my mistakes directly or that I have realized about my mistakes by myself. But now, I have grown to accept who I am and to improve myself in many things. I realized that those 'embarrassing moments' of 'discovering your mistakes' actually are lessons meant to be taken. Hence, I don't feel that embarrassed anymore. There were initial embarrassments of course. But you just got to move forwards and try not to make that same mistake again. =)

4.The feeling of receiving your new parcels is very indescribable. It is like, you're getting a present from someone, and that someone is YOU!!. I think that I am addicted towards online shopping. First it's books, then moving on to clothes and stuffs! Oh God! I think I am transforming into a woman. My mom would approve of this! And I think it is time for me to introduce to my tomboy-ish sister, the 'wonderful world of clothes'. I gotta admit that I did experience some buyers' remorse once in a while. But you learned from your experience right? And once you had bought something that really meets your expectation, you will feel extremely satisfied and happy! I hereby declare that I have fully grasped the meaning of 'retail therapy'.

5. The best revenge is IMMENSE SUCCESS! Also to prove it to those arrogant people/any arrogant person.

6. I miss skating so much. Be it roller blading or ice skating, I've done both. :) I was happy when I found out that I could fit into Haziq's size-adjustable roller blades and so being the child as I always am, I happily 'bladed' around the house porch, while my other siblings with their big shoe size looked at me jealously. :P

7.  Re-watching 'Pendekar Bujang Lapok' for the umpteenth time! No matter how many times that scenes had been played again and again, that the same dialogues had been uttered again and again up till the point where I can memorize those memorable lines, the movie (and his other movies) had never ceased to amaze me, had never failed to entertain me, for P.Ramlee is a legend, and he will always remain a legend, the best and most versatile actor/director/musician/scriptwriter in the world!

Ah well, that's all for now I guess. Toodles! :D 

Remaining Average

Taken from 9gag. 

The Seven Days Twitter Addiction Rehab Programme

I have been tweeting since 2009, which is quite early as compared to 90% of my friends of twitter, and 80% of those on Twitter now (made up my own statistics for the latter, LOL). 

The desire to log in to twitter and to just express my thoughts freely in just 140 characters, to communicate virtually with others, to look at what other tweeters have in store for me based on their tweets, is just...overwhelming!

The first website that I'd browse the moment I woke up in the morning would be twitter, and I'd keep on opening the twitter tab even though there's nothing! I'd scroll down for the tweets from other 'tweeters' in case I had missed anything and until I've reached to the bottom of the page (whereby the tweets were the ones I have read before), I'd scroll up again, and the cycle is repeated over and over again. 

I know that this addiction has to stop now, or it will NEVER be stopped! Thus before it will take its toll on me, I decided to intervene! By MYSELF! I mean, I couldn't stay this way forever! 

Two years ago, I had came across this interesting article in the Female Magazine (Emma Watson cover) about how the editorial team had made a 7 days abstinence programs for themselves. Those programs were

1. Facebook Addiction Rehab

2. TV addiction Rehab

3. Angry Birds Addiction Rehab

and there are some others.

Right after they have finished their 'Rehab program', they emerged as someone new, someone who had been reborn (LOL), what else? Cleansed, purified, washed? :P
 What's more, throughout the 7 days, they had done many beneficial things in the hours that they usually spent on Twitter/Facebook/in front of the television. 

Like I said, I have to do something about this 'Twitter Addiction'. Let's just give it a 7-day trial. If it is a success, then I'd continue it, insya-Allah.

And I'd make another 'Rehab Program' for myself, like 'Facebook Rehab Programme'. Facebook can be so mentally and emotionally unhealthy, you know. FYI, I'm not addicted to facebook. 

Or, 'Internet Rehab Programme'. This is too drastic, isn't it? Haha.

I'm glad I never got to try to play 'Candy Crush'. I heard that it is highly addictive. 

Know, for the 7 Days Twitter Rehab Programme, I have several things in mind:

1. I am not allowed to access the Twitter website (log out!!!) for 7 days. 

2. If I feel like 'tweeting', I should read a book instead. And that book would be 'Robert Kiyosaki's 'Rich Dad, Poor Dad'. LOL. 

3. If I feel like tweeting, I should blog instead. 

4. Maybe I should post diary entries on '7 Days without Twitter'. :P

So yes, that's all for me. The '7 Days Twitter Rehab Programme' will commence on the 10th of November 2013, 12 midnight! 

You see, I envy my friends who do not have facebook accounts, who are not active of Facebook, who do not have Twitter accounts, who tweeted very RARELY. 

Of course, envy couldn't solve anything. Besides, I have the power to control myself! 

Bye Twitter, see you in another 7 days (or longer than that, I hope!) 

Determined!

Mom called, and she inspired me to keep focusing on my goals!

It is not the time to daydream, Sarah. I mean, you should not daydream 24/7 (not that I ever did), you must focus on your goals!

The so-called problems around you are INSIGNIFICANT! They only served to distract you away from your true path, your destiny! LOL

Okay, focusing on my goals.

It's 1.44 am, and I'm typing my PBB report due Friday. Hehehe..

PBB: Pharmaceutical Biotechnology and Biopharmaceutics. 

Marilah kita mendengar lagu yang inspiring originally by Michael Bolton, an entertaining acapella rendition by Rendezvous Quartet. Hehe.

Of running

So, my friends and I joined the iPhA-Race and we got...

Number SEVEN out of EIGHT!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

You know, the result is expected since the beginning. Not just us, but the other teams as well. 

We have never been that athletic but we ran quite far, and quite fast. 

I've never realized that I love running so much. 

So, yeah. It's just a disappointment that we couldn't prove to others that we the non-athletic people could do it. 

It's a double disappointment that we could not answer the questions given to complete the crossword puzzle. We arrived quite early at the finishing line, but we couldn't solve the crossword puzzle. The questions ranged from the 1st year till the 4th year.

What's more, the clue for the first station is ABSURD! Who on earth would rest at the Talhah Gazebo before going to the Kulliyyah of Pharmacy? Except for the gardeners and workers of course!

Anyway, let's just say that the top 3/top 5 places were not meant for us. 

I don't know, I'm disappointed with myself for being embarrassed with our position. We literally ran to the mahallah when they were about to announce the winners for the race, LOL. 

Someone told us that a brother from our group took the hamper on our behalf. Now why can't we just be proud of our own achievement? We have done our best, we have ran the fastest that we could, we have fully utilized each of our own mental capacity. 

And when we did not win, and that we got the 2nd last place, we mourned instead. We got embarrassed. I mean, it's ME who got embarrassed.  How I really wished that I could walk confidently with my head held high, taking the hamper and give my biggest smile. 

It's because I hate losing. I hate failures or anything that does not define 'success'. I am ashamed to say that the undesirable Chinese trait had ran in my blood. Kiasu-ness. My aunt said that Kiasu-ness runs in our family (my Singaporean mother's side). I can't help being kiasu though I am not in any position whatsoever to become one. 

And Luna told me that I am a perfectionist. I never realized I was. Then it hit me, I am actually a perfectionist! T__T

Is perfection everything? Does the top position mean everything to me? Do I really need to prove my self-worth to everyone in the form of a measly competition like this? Or any other worldly competition? Do I really need to jump into the bandwagon of the 'rat race'?

Another thing is that I hate being competitive, and losing in the competition that I've created myself. 

The wise people said that in every life's event, there is a lesson to be learned. Well, I have learned my lesson. Now it's time for the 'practical exam'. The 'practical exam' will happen sooner or later, and I hope that I will be prepared by that time. I'm scared of 'practical exams'. I hope it does not involve my studies. T__T 

I realized that there's so much that I need to change in myself. No no, as perfectionist as I am, I can't become a perfect person. No one could. It's just that when life throws lessons towards us, we know that those lessons are meant to be learned. Sometimes, we could just embrace our imperfections! For example, I hate my 'spontaneity'! 

Good day to you all.