Final Decision

I guess I'll be going to Taiwan after all, insya-Allah.

I'm still in doubt... but yeah, if it's meant for me, it's meant to be lah.

If tak jadi pergi, then it's not meant for me lah..

With that, may peace be upon you! :)

Peach Cobbler

 No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of  

worrying can change the future. Go easy on yourself for the  

outcome of all affairs is determined by Allah’s Decree.

If  something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come on 

your way, but if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot  

flee. 

— (Umar ibn al-Khattab r.a)

Que Sera Sera (Que Sarah Sarah :P)

Whatever will be will be,

The future's not ours to see,

If it's meant for me,

Then it is meant to be, insya-Allah (sorry I tukar lyrics)

I rest my case.

The Return of the Rowling.

In this case, the first person that I thought of upon waking up this morning is JK Rowling. LOL. It probably has to do with the news and announcements about Rowling's new adult fiction which will be published by Little, Brown and Company, who ironically, also published Stephenie Meyer's The Twilight Saga. 

Lying on the bed, my mind drifted off to the trio characters, the main casts who played the trio, the time when  I first watched Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone, the first time I read the book, which is the first most expensive book I've ever bought. RM32.90-RM 36.90.

One of my favourite lines in the books. The one when Harry said to Snape. 

"There's no need to call me sir, " well, something like that 

I love Harry Potter. This might sound a bit corny, but the books are magical in a way. It's as if you're living in the story as one of the characters,that Harry, Ron and Hermione are your friends, that you grew up together with them. And suddenly, 19 years later. Adventure's over. Ahh, only a true Potterhead will understand this feeling.

So, yes. JK Rowling is one of the reasons of my happiness and pain. The happiness when reading her books, and the pain upon closing the final chapter of the Deathly Hallows. Also the pain that I feel for the casts who have worked together for 10 years.

I'm being melodramatic. 

I can't wait to get my hands on the new book! I hope it's as good as what we expect, as it comes from the author who wrote the immensely popular Harry Potter series. If it is well...disappointing, then yeah, (you get the idea). 

#RowlingReturns!!!

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 A thing I found hilarious.

Yup, one of my friends likes her own photo. In fact, MANY of my friends 'liked' their own photos and statuses. :P

Indecisive

This is not one of those popular entertainment blogs where people did reviews on places they went, foods they ate, how to wear a shawl, how to apply a lipstick (LOL), well, you get it.

This is a personal blog. Thus, a place where I ramble and rant with a moderate degree of conscience. 

Here it goes. I'm an indecisive person. I really couldn't make decisions. Even after I've made my decision, I would actually considering of budging from it if there's other alternatives or choices. This is bad. They said that AB blood type people tend to be indecisive, because they are drawn towards both sides, A and B. Of course I should not believe in ridiculous things like this.

I'm feeling a bit down lately. There's no specific or even valid reasons on why I should be upset. Perhaps it's the hormone. I've submitted my resume for the APPS Taiwan 2012. Initially, the kulliyyah wanted to sponsor 8 students. By that, they mean, they're going to give each of us RM500 as some kind of subsidy for the trip. Later on, I've been informed that kulliyyah now is going to sponsor only FIVE students, because they don't have enough money. >_<

I know that I wouldn't make it into one of the five people. I'm not being pessimistic, I'm being realistic. 

The result is not out yet but the thing is, I'm not feeling at all excited about the prospect of going to Taiwan. I'd have to scoop around RM4000 and frankly speaking, Taiwan never made it into my 'List of Places I Wanted to Visit'. So, what's the purpose of spending a lot of money going to a place I don't even have interest of going to? Sorry Taiwanese.  Besides, one of my friends had already tarik diri from going there. That RM4000 could be used for something else!

So I told one of my friends who'll be going there that "I'm sorry". She replied, begging me to go with her. This puts me in a dilemma but of course, again, I'm sorry, I'm not going there, dear.

I've been thinking of doing something else during the upcoming 3 months break. Something more exciting and interesting than Taiwan. I haven't thought of it yet. But yeah, I'm not going to Taiwan. This decision is final. Even if the kulliyyah decided to sponsor me, I'm not going. Instead, I'm going to save money to go to APPS Japan 2013 next year, insya-Allah. Ahh..Japan! Now that's more likely.

Let's talk about good things now.

First of all, I went to my first Mandarin class last night! It was awesome, a source of escape, something I wouldn't mind doing everyday. A tension relief medication, in a way. I hope I will never miss any of the upcoming Mandarin classes, insya-Allah. 

I have this weird picture/vision of myself being cool.

Cool? I picture myself as this girl in a denim jubah (I have no idea, don't ask me), a long tudung and a brown vintage oxford shoes, walking by herself, reading classics like Vanity Fair, Love at the Time of Cholera and The Taming of the Shrew, listening to classical music, reciting sonnets of William Butler Yeats and William Shakespeare, spends time writing poems like Emily Dickinson, absorbed in her own world. 

This is weird, isn't it? I do not possess a denim jubah and an Oxford shoes (hey, maybe I could use the money to buy the denim jubahs and several pairs of Oxford shoes! And more long tudungs, LOL) I've never read any of the 3 books listed above, the only sonnet of Shakespeare that I remember is the one in the English Literature Form 4 which goes like this:

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

thou art more lovely and temperate

then I forgot the rest of the poem. 

I enjoy reading classics even when I was a young child. But back the, I read the abridged version. The complete, unabdriged version is quite...how to say it? Soporific. Yeah. Not all of them, of course. 

Well, actually there's more. But let's give it a rest. 

And yeah, I'm the secretary for IIUMFiesta's opening ceremony+forum. Life will be very busy. 

WO HEN MANG!!! 

Ok, bye! WAN SHANG HAO!!! 

Paranoid

My height is acceptable. LOL.

The same goes with my weight.

My BMI is normal.

Visceral fat percentage is normal too.

But the thing is, I love to EAT.

Just give me all kinds of foods, I'll gobble them up like Augustus Gloop.

Okay, let me paraphrase the sentence I love to EAT. Fast foods, particularly. KFC, Pizza Hut. McDonald's tak, sebab boycott. LOL. 

But I don't exercise. I hate exercising. 

And so, I'm scared of getting high blood pressure, atherosclerosis, arteriosclerosis, all kinds of heart diseases. Diabetes mellitus, etc. 

Also, I think I'm getting fat! *grumpy*. 

Look at me, only 21 and yet thinking about health (this is a cynical remark, not a self-compliment).

It shows that I'm growing up and becoming an adult! *gasp*.

Believe it or not, one of the signs of adulthood is when you started being concerned about your health, and taking action such as dieting (to avoid unnecessary fats accumulating in my heart, vessels and other parts) and also exercising (if you don't exercise and just keep on dieting, do you expect the 'beloved' fats that you  currently possess will miraculously disappear? Okay fine, only if you're severely anorexic but we don't want to be like Nicole Richie or Kate Moss, even Victoria Beckham, don't we?)

The principle is preventing something from entering and throwing something out. Well, something like that. *shrug*

So, I decided to change.

So far, things are going OK.

My first principle is: EAT only when you really feel hungry.

For breakfast, I only drink a hot mug of Milo, which is enough to last up till 1.00 p.m, where I'll take brunch of a polystyrene full of rice (carbohydrate) with the gravy (oil/fat) filled to the brim that if you carry it in a plastic, the gravy will spill out. A large fish (protein) and also, vegetables. Maximum price if you buy it at Cafe Lot 4 Talhah =RM4.00.

When I eat, I will munch it slowly, bit by bit, grinding each food into fine particles (? haha) so that my stomach and intestine could digest them easier, easier for absorption as well. :P Also to avoid indigestion. Doing this is a kind of exercise for your mouth, burning up the unnecessary fats that made up your double chin and round cheeks. (I hope! xD), also it makes you feel satiated (kenyang) at a short time. So, no need to eat more. Save money, yaay!!!

After that, I'll take a tablet of  Vitamin C (I always experience cold so it helps to boost my immunity plus, more radiant skin! :P) and a tablet of Vitamin ACE (anti-oxidants). You could also take other multivitamins but not too much. Real foods always beat the artificial. Taste better, too. 

I drink a maximum of 1.8L water per day. Know how I do it?

Take a water bottle of 600ml capacity. Fill it. 

1. Drink the first 600 ml in the morning. Fill it.

2. Drink the second 600 ml in the afternoon. Fill it.

3. Drink the third 600 ml at night.

Of course, you don't have to gulp all 600 ml water in one go. Take it slowly.

At around 6.30 p.m, I went jogging with my friend at the dirty, polluted lake in front of the mahallah. I made 7 rounds just now. Yaay! Bear in mind that this effort has to be continuous. At least jog once a week if you're too busy during the weekdays. 

At night, I feel a bit hungry but not exactly starving. I shall not succumb to the will of my stomach. Rather, I regard it as a lust towards food. You're not actually hungry, do ya? Pfftt..

Instead, I drink Milo. I drink water. Sometimes, your stomach cheated on you. You think you're craving for food when actually, your stomach yearns to be filled with something. Water, perhaps? Water is good.

I want to keep up with this kind of lifestyle. I don't want to get hypertension (my late grandma had one) and any other diseases resulted from sedentary lifestyles!

But I'm going to add something.

QUAKER OAT! Or just plain oatmeal. 

I'm gonna eat it in the morning as breakfast.

At night, when I could not bear the hunger and lust for food, LOL,

Tadaa! OAT is the solution!

Why oat? After extensive research and evidences, Oat had been proven to reduce the cholestrol of your heart  , the bad low density lipoprotein. Believe me, this claim is 100% valid because according to my lecturer, "For a medical claim to be made towards a particular food product, there need to be supporting proofs and evidences". And yes, extensive research. Also because I take nutraceutical this semester. A subject that deals with nutrition and pharmaceutical. Foods that could give health benefits.

Gotta get Oatmeal pronto!!! 

With that, thank you!

And yes, everything is based on willpower!!! 

P.S. Baru cakap tak nak makan malam, sekali roommate offer mee bandung. Tapi yelah, bak kata P.Ramlee, rezeki jangan ditolak, maut jangan dicari. Juga untuk mengelakkan pembaziran. Sekian terima  kasih. 

P.P.S. Alah, kalau puasa satu hari boleh, takkanlah skip makan malam pun tak boleh? Oh yes, besides, you could also fast during the day, but eat moderately for iftar. 

Can't believe I'm writing this. Tsk. 

SPM Results

Gotcha! Nope, I have no idea on when the results will be out. I don't care to know either. :P

I've shared this before in 2008, having the last laugh before receiving my 2007 SPM Results. LOL. 

To all 2011 SPM Candidates, all the best! Oh yes, this year shows a similarity with the year 2008, the year  we received the SPM results, also the year where the General Election took place. I have a strong conviction that the next election will take place this year (duh-uh!), most probably after you received your SPM results. :P

EDIT: SPM Results will be out on 22nd of March 2012

When is the SPM results? What the Experts had to say...

Kindergarten teacher:I dunno

Aristotle: It is the nature of spm result come out in uncertain date

Ronald Reagan: I forget.

Richard M. Nixon: The result is not out yet. I repeat, the result is NOT out yet.

Jerry Seinfeld: Why does anyone want spm result? I mean, why doesn't anyone ever think to ask "What the heck was this result doing out here, around all over the place anyway?"

Bill Gates: I have just released the new SPM Results Office 2000, which will not only tell the result, but will give result, file your result, and balance your result. Get the Genuine results.

Tun Dr M: You know, I am tired of all this...'apa-nama' SPM-SPM bisnes...the foreign powers should stop intervening in our domestic affairs and just leave our SPM results alone.. If they want to... 'apa nama' to be out and announced, they should be allowed to ... Malaysia is a democratic country; we let our SPM results come out whenever they want to... as long as they don't threaten the Malay unity and try to topple the
government...and if they plan to do so... we won't hesitate to use the ISA...

Pak Lah: Ini semua adalah khabar angin sahaja...jangan percaya khabar -khabar angin ini semua... biasalah ini adalah taktik pembangkang untuk memecah belahkan keputusan kita semua... jangan percaya... jangan percaya...

Sammy Vellu: Ayyooyoo... belakang cerita lain kali, kita sude bikin banyak jembatan, itu result musti guna jembatan untuk lintas itu jalan supayaaa, die boleh keluar, lagi pun kalu itu result mau kluar jalan-jalan, beritau sama saya juga, saya bolley buat lebbey banyak toll........

Karam Singh Walia: Seperti yang saudara dapat lihat, kelihatan keputusan itu belum keluar. Mereka bukan belum keluar, malah membuang masa kita kerana terlalu bosan, kita on9 selalu menyebabkan pembaziran elektrik dan ini adalah pencemaran yang paling hebat di maya ini. Result SPM haruslah mengambil inisiatif untuk keluar dgn lebih cepat dan lebih byk A1, sekian saya sudahi dengan.........Keputusan SPM di keluarkan; Calon di rumah mati ke-cuak-an.

Colonel Sanders: WTF??

Bill Clinton: I've had so many results, I can't remember...

Wan Kamarudin (edisi siasat ntv7): Ape kejadahnyer ini semua, keputusan tak keluar, calon-calon asyik menganga saje.

Zainal Ariffin Ismail ( Misteri Nusantara): Ada saksi menyatakan yang mereka dapat melihat keputusan SPM keluar di kampung ini pada waktu malam. Ada yang menyatakan keputusan ini merupakan penyamaran jin. Dan ada juga mengaitkannya dengan peristiwa silam

On a final note, at your tender age of 17-18, it's only natural to feel that SPM means the world to you, that getting undesirable results equals the end of the world. Trust me, once you've reached my age (I'm 22 this year), you'll realize that SPM is a bunch of craps anyway. The results? They are all alphabets. HAHA.

But yelah, you can't deny that SPM is important. More on this later (I guess). 

May Peace be Upon You! 

The Search

It's the remote control.

This morning, I searched for it on the sofa, at the corner of the sofa, under the sofa, on the floor (whether it has fell down), even thinking of going to the kitchen to look for it (LOL).

It turned out that the remote was on the table. 'Sitting' majestically on the table RIGHT in front of me.

Later on I realised that;

"Sometimes, you could be searching for that one thing for the rest of your life without even realizing that the thing is actually in front of you,"

In this case, it's for one whole minute. 

I've taken the trouble to search the remote control at unthinkable places, places that I think I'd found it, when in fact, it was there on the table, visible to everyone else but not me.

Why didn't I look to the surface of the table in the first place? Because I found it ridiculous to actually look for something that doesn't really need to be looked for. (read this two or three times to understand its meaning).Okay, if you still don't understand. It's like this:

The moment you see the remote on the table. That's it. Take the remote. You don't have to search for it.

If you know the remote is on the table, you wouldn't be searching high and low for it. 

This sounds complicated, doesn't it? 

The same goes with our lives, I guess. 

We tend to think of complex means of achieving our goals when in fact, it's really easy (Not easy as it sound of course). But maybe we don't have to look for opportunities we've been looking for, the ones we've been waiting for all along.  

The opportunity is right in front of you, waiting for you to acknowledge its existence. 

It seems like you got a feeling that every single thing has to be difficult and laborious, so you chose the hard way of searching the remote at other places but at the top of the table- the place where you could find everything the easiest. 

Maybe we've been searching at the wrong places all the time when in fact, it doesn't need to be searched for. The remote control is RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. ON. THE. TABLE!!!

Or maybe I could just say "I didn't see the remote on the table, so I looked somewhere else".

Because all this time, the remote had always camouflaged itself within the black material of the sofa. Naturally, it's the first place that I'll look for.

 The same goes with your life. It has always been arduous, the ways of how your goals are achieved. What makes you think that this one task (after a series of difficult courses) would be easy? Hence the reason I didn't look for the remote on the table in the first place

Easy la eh? No need to trouble your mind with this short essay. Pffttt..

Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work
                                                                     - Thomas Edison

(though I hardly count 'looking for remote control' as an 'opportunity' dressed in overalls)

Good day to you all *tipping my non-existent bowler hat*

Short (forced) update

aka 'A Post for Haziq'

My 8-year-old Bro, Haziq said

"Kakak, kakak tulislah dalam blog kakak kita main Monopoly sama-sama,"

I'm forced to play Monopoly with my youngest brother, considering none of my other siblings wanted to play with him. Kesian la kat dia. I'm a good sister kan, mesti la kena main dengan adik. :P

My mom remarked,

"This will be a moment to remember! (for my brother)". LOL

I don't even like Monopoly. Erkk...

So, here it is Haziq! (Haziq's sitting next to me as I type this).