PCE Part Two

The committee members had just posted the videos on facebook. So here it is.

Me and 'makcik' Alice

When you're about to watch this video, please set the screen definition into 480p (the highest definition there is). And oh yes, my voice is...unusual. I don't like it that much( it really sounds weird when you listen to yourself talking). Most importantly, pay attention to the 'makcik's superb acting!! :D Makcik boleh masuk sitkom makcik! xD 

That's all from me. Assalamualaikum. 

Fourth Chapter of Final Year

So I went to the first debate practice last night. Not exactly debating, but watching those awesome guys debated about this particular topic. 

I was the oldest/most senior person there. So sad. Didn't realize that I was that old until two junior guys there (1st year Pharmacy) asked for my tips on 'time management'. "Kak Syahirah (yeah, Syahirah!), macam mana nak manage time?" LOL !Are you guys for real?. Okay, I'm already old. I'm a senior. I'm a fourth year student. I'm a FINAL year student. 

And oh, the debaters are so freaking awesome that they gave me inferiority complexes. I know, you need a A LOT of practices. Correct Grammar doesn't matter like seriously. Haha. As long as you can deliver your points, and make the audience understand, then it is okay. 

Speaking of the name 'Syahirah'. I almost forgot that I have this name, :P. I lost my matric card, and I paid for the new one, and put the name 'Syahirah' in front, so that I wouldn't forget my identity. From now on, whenever I meet a new person/a group of people, I'd introduce myself as 'Syahirah'! :D

Oh, I think I have told you that I am so happy and comfortable being in a laboratory, doing my research project. I feel so calm and peaceful, surrounded by amber bottles of chemicals and laboratory apparatus. I'd be happier if I'm alone in the lab, that I'd softly hum my favourite songs while washing the used lab utensils. 

My future house shall include a library and a laboratory for my personal use. I'm already thinking of converting the spare room upstairs into a laboratory. But I guess my mom wouldn't let me do that. 

I think I've been influenced by my favourite childhood cartoon- Dexter's Laboratory, or maybe I lacked sleep. 

Well, that's all! :D

It's really hard..But I'll persevere.

At this point in life, I realized that the BIGGEST hurdle that I have to overcome is MYSELF. 

Third Chapter of Final Year

The first week of lecture had passed by, leaving us with another 4 lecture weeks before the mid break/Raya Haji holiday starts in October.

I am taking 6 core courses subjects and an elective 'Research Project' subject. I'm feeling better now as compared to my first day here. 

I find Clinical Pharmacokinetics to be the most challenging subject this semester. The rest just requires reading and memorization. CP, on the other hand, needs intense comprehension on the list of topics and oh, we have to perform lots of calculations involving different variables provided in the patient's charts, using various mathematical formulae. Clearly, this subject reminds me of Additional Mathematics and Physics all over again. 

Throughout the 3 years in the pharmacy course (I'm a final year student now, ahemm), I have always studied for examinations. But not this year. This year, I am going to change. Screw the exams! I am going to study for my beloved future patients. :P It means that I'm gonna study for Allah's sake la. When you berbakti and  berbudi bahasa' towards people (without any other intention except to make them BETTER in terms of health and maybe appearances), you make Him feel pleased with you, insya-Allah. And so, when studying, I'm gonna visualize that my patient is now in a critical condition and so I need to find out what is actually happening to him. LOL. So yes, study and work for Allah's sake. It's a way to gain pahala. Oi, you don't want pahala ke Sarah?? 

Remember that I used to complain about me feeling confused and clueless as to 'what am I doing in this course?' and that 'I wanted to take other art courses like Law, Journalism or Anthropology?' Nope. That phase is finally over. Full stop. After taking the 'Ethics and Law' subject last semester, where we were forced to memorize the contents of the Law Book, I feel that 'Law' and I do not 'click' with each other. (I got an A- for that paper though). I don't feel the satisfaction of studying that kind of thing.

I guess I have always liked challenges. I wanted to study something that requires me to think really hard and gives me headaches. As much as I despise memorizing the lengthy list of drugs (plus their mechanism of actions, adverse effects, etc etc), I feel that I'd rather memorize the names of those drugs rather than the Regulations, Sections and Acts of the Law subject. And oh, I love History. I can memorize the facts and figures in the History books/articles better than I do with Pharmacology subject/or any other Pharmacy subject. I'm not bragging, I'm just stating the truth. Many of my friends could memorize the names of drugs better than the historical facts. Like I said, I love challenges. There is that satisfaction that could not be described when you finally managed to memorize and master the subjects/topics that you have taken so much time to painstakingly learn and comprehend. 

I'm not comparing Pharmacy with History or Law per se, but you get it? So yes, this is it. If any of you ever came across 'Pharmacy is not Me. I'd rather do something else' in this post or in speech, then feel free to knock my head with an empty 500 ml mineral water whenever you see me. You should knock some senses into me. 

With that, Thank you. And please pray for my success in this world and hereafter. Ameen. May you have a great day and may you be blessed always. :) 

Second chapter of Final Year

I woke up in the morning, went to the bathroom, turned on the tap. No water coming out of it. Still in daze, I went to the toilet cubicle, turned on the tap and oh, no water jugak.

It suddenly hit me. NO WATER! How am I going to answer my nature's call? How am I going to perform my wudhu' for Subuh prayer? ESPECIALLY the former one! Second one can do tayammum.

Borrowed a pail from my friend Jay. Glad to find out that the sink at the pantry has water flowing out of its tap, though rather slowly. Filled the pail with water and brought it to the shower cubicle.

Suddenly realized that there's not enough water to wash and rinse away all the soap bubbles I had on me. So I went outside again, filled the pail with water and went into the shower cubicle, having my shower for the second time. LOL. 

So, throughout the day,  the residents of Mahallah Maimunah had become like those villagers in rural areas. 

In the afternoon right after the class ended, followed my roommates to ECM. Performed Asar prayer at the mosque located near it. Went into ECM. I didn't intend to buy anything as I've bought my groceries last Sunday. I suddenly realized that I was in a dire need for a new class bag. My favourite purple canvas bag had been stolen by the thieves strike morons when they broke and entered into my house last Raya holidays. I am left with three old bags in campus. And the one that I brought along to ECM was the blue, faded canvas bag with 'Universal Studios Singapore' sewn in front of it. Low quality bag. Why did I ever buy it? T__T. 

So I walked around by myself. Went to FOS, saw an array of bags being displayed there. Each of them costs about RM39.90 to RM49.90. But they are of low qualities and I don't like the designs. 

Went to Brands Outlet. Ditto.

Finally went into Quicksilver. Saw one black canvas bag that really attracted me. ROXY. 50% discounts. Whoa. I walked around first. Looked at the variety of backpacks on the shelves. There was one backpack of which I had fallen in love at first sight. I looked at the price tag. RM279.90. *PENGSAN*. 

I went out of Quicksilver and went upstairs to the 2nd level to Tropicana Life shop. The bags there are quite pricey as well, but ROXY wins in terms of its colourful designs. Oh, on the way up there, I took the escalator. You know what I hate about this escalator which takes a LOONGG time to reach up there? GUYS in escalators. To be specific, a group of guys in the escalators, standing in front of you. YOU. ALONE. BY YOURSELF. That they casually looked behind, looking at you. Staring at you. Talking among themselves about.. I dunno. I didn't know which way to look so I occasionally looked behind to spare the awkwardness. My smartphone wasn't there with me, so I can't like, play games or whatever. So I just looked elsewhere, maybe staring above me, clearly aware of them staring at me, praying that the escalator would go faster (to no avail).They are like school kids. Those who have never seen a woman before. Woman la sangat. This had happened several times already. Huh! And even when we had reached to the 2nd floor, and when I was about to enter another shop, one of them turned his head to continue looking at me. Whatever la. Anyway, I looked selekeh with my simple black and white baju kurung and black tudung-a classic-just-got-back-from-class look. 

So I withdrawn my money from the ATM. Went downstairs to Quicksilver. Finally decided to buy the bag on discounts. Normal price RM169.90 *PENGSAN* but 50% discounts, RM85 approximately. A but pricey but it's worth it. I love canvas bags. They are durable and sturdy. Long lasting. 

Arrived at campus.. Went to Kulliyyah of Pharmacy to perform Maghrib prayer. Went back to Mahallah.  Found out that the taps had brown water gushing out of them Filled the pail with water once more. And I slept early last night.

So here it is. A diary entry. :P 

First Chapter of Final Year: LOST

Yo, final year already la. 

As of now, I am feeling clueless and lost. Perhaps it's the after-effect of fever. Perhaps I'm having fever due to yesterday's heavy downpours.

I tried writing (continuing my stories), but I feel unsure of how the plot will end. Maybe I should just go with the flow, isn't it? That will make the story more realistic instead of looking fake and staged.

I hope I will become more excited and energetic once the classes begin tomorrow. 

Tomorrow, tomorrow, 

I love you tomorrow,

You're always a day away... 

-Annie- 

Thought of the Day

Just like Dae Jang Geum, I would never give up!!!

Of Marriage and Mutual Weirdness

Assalamualaikum and a very good day to all.

We each has different dreams, and one should not scorn over another person's dream, no matter how ridiculous or far-fetched it is. Dreams, when translated into a more practical term is called life's plans.

At this blooming age (reproductive la, fine), people would naturally opted 'marriage' as one of their life's plans. People have plans to get married as early as they could. At least, after they have graduated or at the very most, before they hit 30. 

Just recently, a friend of mine had told me that she is ready to get married and to start a family. She voiced  out her concern of having not met 'anyone' yet and that she is afraid that she might end up getting married at quite a 'matured' age. LOL.

To be truthful, that friend aside, I have met many friends who planned on getting married right after they have graduated. But when I asked them "Do you have a calon yet?" most of them said "No, not yet,"

Of course, it is nature of humans to plan but whether their plans materialized or not, it is up to Allah to decide. I confess that I laughed silently upon listening to their similar answers but ahem, do not make fun of other people's dreams, Sarah. 

Most of those people I met, who planned on getting married apparently do not have any other life's plans; i.e, plans for themselves. They feel that as long as they got married, then everything will be okay. That their ultimate dream has been fulfilled. MOST people okay, MOST. I have met a married couple who have their own individual dreams to accomplish (you know who you are, :P).

I would not chastise anyone who feels that 'marriage' is the epitome of happiness.  Just like a dream, different person has different definition of happiness. Who am I to judge you if you tell me that you'd achieve happiness once you get married and who are you to judge me if I tell you that I'd achieve happiness once I met Song Joong Ki? LOL KIDDING!

But indeed, it is wrong if you feel that ONLY by getting married, then ONLY you'll be happy. It is very worrying if you keep on thinking about marriage when you could do something else for yourself. What if you ended up getting married, and later on finding out that the marriage is not full of snowdrops and rainbows like what you have imagined before? Bear in mind, a perfect marriage only exists in fictions. A less than perfect marriage? I'm all armed for that, or at least I think so. T___T

I am saying that you should not put marriage as a basis for your happiness level. I think that it is quite ridiculous for you to keep on waiting for your future soulmate to arrive right in your front door without doing anything else. 

"When is he going to come for me?"

"I'm tired of waiting,"

" Will I end up as a spinster?"

It is not wrong to wait and hope for him to come. But in the mean time, why don't you try to have other dreams for yourself? Why don't you sign up for a language class, travel abroad with your friends, have a series of adventures, going down the Sungai Rejang, go camping at the Taman Negara, volunteered for a charity body, participate in Masterchef Malaysia (LOL), like, you know, doing productive and FUN stuffs? Things that you would have lesser time to do once you have gotten married. 

I once read a quote that 'You will find love when doing things that you love," Well, sort of. Haha. I have this firm conviction that once you are preoccupied with other matters (other than thinking about your prince charming), then your significant other will slowly slip in, entering your life. 

After all, Allah do things in the most unexpected ways, right? Surprise!!! 

They'd be greatly astonished

to learn that for a long time

chance had been playing with them.

Not yet wholly ready

to transform into fate for them

it approached them, then backed off,

stood in their way

and, suppressing a giggle,

jumped to the side.

-Love at First Sight by Wislawa Szymborska

I think that for you who have been worrying about this, why don't you take a deep breath? Relax, calm down. Believe in what had been written when you were about to be created. If Allah had decreed that you will find your future spouse at this specific time or place then what is there to be worried about? Believe in Him! And His promises! He would never ever broke/had never broken any promise made! 

If you feel tired of waiting, or is doubting Him, maybe this is His way of testing you. Perhaps if you passed this 'Patience Test' then only He will send your other half to you!

With every test, there is an outcome. You passed the Test, you will be rewarded. You failed the Test, have no fear, there will be another test, again and again until you passed the Test. He would make sure that you get what He had promised to you. That is why, Allah is the BEST! :D 

As for me? Right now, marriage is not included in my 'short term life plans'. Recently, there had been a talk of matchmaking me with someone, of which I think that it is really ridiculous and that I quickly brush it off! I don't think that the 'matchmaker' is being serious anyway but the very thought of it brings chills down my spine! NO! (Matchmaker is a relative) But I'm sure that in the future, there will be more 'matchmaking talks', to my chagrin. *rolled eyes*. 

Maybe it's because I have many goals and dreams waiting to be achieved, that I do not think much about marriage, alhamdulillah. My parents do not force me to get married right after graduation (unlike the parents of some of my friends), of which I am very thankful for that, and that I intend to take care of my parents, siblings, relatives and the society first. Hamboihhh.. 

But of course, if there comes a day, when Allah had secretly let someone walked into my life of busy-ness and the yet-unfulfilled dreams, then I simply could not refuse it, right? LOL.

HAPPY SEEKING FOR LOVE! Before that, be sure to seek for the ETERNAL love first, insya-Allah you will feel loved. :) 

And oh, remember this 'Hati manusia ni, Allah yang pegang. If you love Allah, and Allah loves you, Allah will give you the best person for you, so, be sure to love ALLAH! <3 nbsp="">

Adieu, adieu, to you and you and you!!