Death 'Wishlist'

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hello all. :)

Don't be scared of the title. 

I'm a paranoid kind of person. If there is something wrong with my health or whatsoever, I'd quickly google   the symptoms that I'm experiencing (have experienced/ thought/think I might experience) and would be surprised (in totally dramatic way) to find the list of diseases that I might have. Some of them;

• Multiple sclerosis (upon tripping here and there sometimes. I'm a klutz)
• Hyperthyroidism (I always get nervous and my hands are shaking- naturally shaky, pfftt)
• Parkinson's Disease (shaky hands-it runs in the family, according to my granduncle. MTV VJ Utt also has naturally shaky hands so I guess it's nothing serious >__<)
• Cancers of all sort (I'm overreacting, I know)
• Ophthalmic diseases that would result in blindness (stay away from computer).
• Hypertension ( I eat a lot >__<)
• That disease where you get old in a young age. 
• I'm afraid I might get bacterial infection or something because the mahallah's toilets and shower stalls are sooo  dirtyyyy.
• Kidney disease because I boiled tap water which might be free from microorganisms but not from harmful trace metals from the rusty pipes that might accumulate in my nephrons thus damaging my kidneys. Our mahallahs still do not provide water filter. Nak tunggu tulis surat kat main camp kat Gombak ke???? 
• And many others, sheeshhh...

Then, some major things happened. You know about the 'choices' I mentioned in the previous post? Lately, it's been kind of easy for me to make that choice. Only that it's not me. Several circumstances forced me to make that choice. Like I said, 'someone' had played some tricks on me. 

This leads to a reflection. Am I going to die young? With diseases or something? Oh no. I haven't even completed my degree yet. I haven't finished writing that novel. My degree of Iman is still at a (I dunno, insert one appropriate word) stage. NOOOOO!!!! My family needs me! 

And thus, that leads to this list: 

1.  I wish not to die horribly, detached, deformed in any way.
2.  I wish not to die in accidents of any kind.
3. I wish not to die unexpectedly like in accidents.
4. I wish to die on the Thursday Night (Malam Jumaat) or on Friday.
5.  I wish to meet my Creator in the best physical, emotional and mental preparation and presentation of myself.
6.  I wish my parents and siblings would not be devastated with my death but rather, view it as 'Allah loves me and he wants me to be with Him and soon He will take all of them together with Him and we will be reunited once again'. 
7. I wish I had brought some good changes in this world, or that I've changed someone.
8.  I wish I do not suffer much before finally breathing my last breath. For example, if I were to die because of a disease, I wish to die quickly and not suffer much.
9.  I wish not to trouble anyone who needs to make some time to tend to me on my dying bed or something. I wish to have some degree of independence (except of course, total dependence only towards Allah) as I reach my last moment on Earth. Tak nak menyusahkan orang. 
10.  I wish that I have reached the highest level of Iman I could ever achieved in this world when it's time for me to go. 
11.  I wish that majority of my tasks had been fulfilled before I die. 
12. I wish not to die being murdered or tortured by people/animals. Nauzubillahiminzalik. 
13. I wish to die in Malaysia because it would be easy for my family members and friends to visit my grave. If I were to die in overseas, my family would want my body back in my tanah tumpahnya darahku thus there will be that horrible procedures where they 'clean' up the corpse's body before sending me back. 

But of course, I need to pray a lot and to make many efforts in order for the list of wishes in this 'Death Wishlist' to come true (or at least, most of them. No accidents/murders please, huhu) I need to love Allah so that I would have some degree of happiness (and reda-what's that word in English? :P) when it's time for me to go back to Him. Funny, isn't it? But really, it is something that you need to think about. 

I wish not to die young (how young is young anyway?) because I have many responsibilities and tasks. I'm the eldest in the family, my parents vouch me to take care of my siblings if anything were to happen to them ( I always pray for my parents' longevity and prosperity), I need to fulfill my parents' needs first, I need to make my parents happy, my family happy, I need to change the world in many ways (women's rights, for example)

I want to achieve many things like completing my Ph.D, write my books and get them published, I want to meet my soulmate and to  travel around the world with him,  exploring different cultures and getting to know the other sides of the world that I've never seen nor experienced,

 I wish to meet new people, exchanging various ideas, to give them the good impression about Islam and what this religion of peace is really about.

I wish to be like Ahmed Deedat, who died at a prosperous age of 80 something. But of course,he has numerous reasons to live. But what about me? How will I be so sure that I will do something as great (or at least, something beneficial) as what he did if Allah were to grant me a long lifespan? 

If you were to live up till that age, make sure you have achieved something. If not, those long years would be a huge waste of time. You'd be better off dying young. This is a reminder to me, of course. 

For now, I need to

1. Eat less fatty foods and carbs ( I love rice and bread!)

2. Readjust my biological clock 

3. Exercise more

4. Take more supplements

5. Pray a lot

6. Study for quizzes and exams (stepping stones towards changing the world, you see!)

With that, thank you and may peace be upon you! 

'The man who decided to change on the 12th hour dies on the 11th'. 

Neverwhere

It's like, somebody has played some tricks on me. 

Surprisingly, those tricks narrowed down my choices or even, helping me to choose which is the best for me.

I'm a really indecisive person. Now, I have two choices. But I don't know which is better than which. I'm afraid that I could not live up to people's expectations when I finally have chosen one of those choices.

Oh yes, I've almost forgotten. Please no one but Allah. 

And again, that somebody who 'played some tricks' on me. I'm sure you know who that 'someone' is.Or maybe just a small percentage of all of you.  Teeheee...

Two choices. Choose one. To tell the truth, it's nothing big. Just a small matter brought into exaggeration by an abnormally dramatic drama queen.

Neil Gaiman is so awesome. Can't believe I haven't read any of his books before. HUHU.

He's like, the modern-age C.S Lewis (Chronicles of Narnia) and Lewis Carroll (Alice in Wonderland)

wordless wednesdays are so overrated.

He is right!

Went to Dr. Razak's room to discuss about the anti-infective agent seminar.

Dr.Razak: (talking about endocarditis) bacteria tu ada dalam heart dalam bentuk thrombus lepas tu bila thrombus tu pecah baru keluar kat valve. Lepas tu baru antibiotic kat luar tu attack before bacteria tu masuk circulation dan terus jadi septicemia. 

Sarah: Oh, maksudnya bila thrombus tu pecah, antibiotic tu ada kat luar dah eh?

Dr. Razak: Jangan fikir macam tu. The problem is, korang selalu fikir step by step. Semua benda boleh berlaku pada masa yang sama.

Honestly, I think he misunderstood my question. My real question was 'Maksudnya sebelum thrombus tu pecah lagi antibiotic tu ada kat luar dah la kan? Bukannya nak tunggu thrombus tu pecah baru nak inject antibiotic?' Kan? Kan? Dr. Razak selalu misunderstood dengan saya. Hukhukhuk. 

Dr. Razak : (sambung lagi). Contohnya Prof. Noriah kata kena settle semua sekali, baru boleh kahwin (Prof Noriah disapproves of students getting married while studying) tapi kalau saya, tak payah step-by step. Waktu tengah belajar pun boleh kahwin (memang ahh. Dr. Razak pun kahwin waktu study, LOLZ)

Dr. Razak: Okay dah. Sambung-sambung.

First, I disagree with him about that marriage thing. Getting married while studying. I agree with Prof. Noriah regarding this.(don't ask the reasons why) Hey, everyone is entitled to his or her opinion, am I right? If everyone is having the same way of thinking, then where's the fun? We are all unique in our own ways, we can't always expect everyone to have the same opinions.

But then, I kinda agree with him regarding 'Tak payah step by step'. You see, I'm the kind of person who had planned out what I wanted to do. For instance, after completing my degree, I wish to work for a year or two, then pursue my studies to higher level, become a lecturer. Or even, I wish to do something else. I wish to take Journalism or media studies. I had it all planned step by step. Unfortunately, most of the plans did not went according to plans. Hmmm..

Everything that happens is the best, directing us towards our true goal, our real destiny. For example in How I Met Your Mother, if Ted didn't meet Robin, broke up with Victoria and Stella, quits his job as an architect and becomes a professor instead (and many other things), he wouldn't have met his wife (of which we still don't know) and wouldn't have told the whole story to his children about how he met their mother!

I think it's okay to plan. It's just that we don't have to get too upset when those plans did not work out. I feel that it's also good to just go with the flow. Yes, plan and go with the flow. Don't get too rigid with the plans, and don't dilly dally by just waiting for the next flow. If we feel like doing that certain thing, then just do it! Life is too short and precious to have them all planned step by step, which would take like, more than 10 years. 

Four years of studying, then want to take journalism (LOL), want to write stories the year after that, want to complete the music course I've abandoned 8 years ago. It will take years and years. I might be around 80 (if I managed to live up till that age) to complete the list of things I've planned. 

Of course, those are my plans. But then again, Allah is the best planner. (whoa, banyaknya word 'plan'). 

For now, I would like to cherish each moment of my life. Planning stuffs give me headaches. I wanted to become like Forrest Gump. Though born with a below than average IQ, he becomes more successful than any of his friends of his school years (though of course, he didn't have any school friend except Jenny). When he feels like playing Ping Pong, he'll do his very best in it. When he feels like running, he will run. He did his best in everything. 

Of course, to cap this all. Life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you're gonna get' (unless of course, it is fully stated that it's a Black Forest chocolate then of course you know what you're gonna get but don't ruin this beautiful quote please).

:)

Oprah Winfrey said 'Yes, you can have everything. But not at the same time'. BINGO! 

Plan. At the same time, don't be too rigid. Try to adjust yourself with the flow. 

With that, thank you and may peace be upon you! 

Currently listening to: Oxford Comma by Vampire Weekend. 

P.S. I feel like trying 'Bungee jumping'. 

Precious lessons

- Don't crack under pressure.

-SMILE! SMILE! SMILE wherever you are, whatever situation you're in! :D

-Your pics will not look the same as you really look because face it, you're not photogenic. HAHA

- Being dramatic has its own advantages, but when it becomes excessive, it is not healthy. Na-ahh...

With that, thank youuu.... :)

How horrible is horrible?

The dinner just now could be summarized in one word. HORRIBLE. Or maybe, I'm just exaggerating. :P

A few hours before, I felt like complaining about everything in this blog. There's so many people to be blamed, LOL. I just ABHOR last minute, disorganized preparations. But never mind. Thank you dear supportive participants and supportive committee members, Fatt, Kak Sarah, my MC-ing partner, Firdaus, my friends back there- Tiqah, Paris, Aina, etc. Thank you to the sweet Bruneian lady who kept on smiling towards us. Sejuk hati bila tengok dia senyum. Hehe. 

Anyway, we've tried our best, we've spent hours of making script and practicing but in the end, Allah decided the rest. Let's just have faith in Allah. 

And in the end, instead of forever feeling stressed out about that, we ended up laughing upon thinking about that particular incident. :D

I think I'm more suited to become the timekeeper, haha. Kena turun pangkat from Quiz Moderator jadi timekeeper. :P
When I entered the lecture hall, the first face that I saw was of Prof. Noriah's. She saw me and asked 

'Eh, you're the timekeeper?'

I grinned and said 'Yes!'

She asked again 'Oh, so you're the timekeeper'.

I laughed and said 'Yes, Dr.'

And she went off laughing. 

The reason for that...Oh well.. there's a back story to that. I'll tell it next time, insya-Allah. 

Right now, I wanted to watch 'an episode of How I Met Your Mother', get some good night sleep and get ready for my job tomorrow.

With that, may peace be upon you!

The Beginning of a Story

In the name of Allah, the most graceful and most merciful, 

Once upon a time, there lives a very lonely girl. She is indeed, the loneliest girl ever in planet Earth. Well at least, in her college. No friends. Lives alone in her dorm room. No siblings.Her parents have been sentenced to life imprisonment for the various crimes they have committed.No relatives. No pets.To say it again, she is the loneliest girl you could possibly imagine.

One day, she went to the shopping mall. A child's voice called upon her. By instinct, she quickly went to the toys department, seeking for the voice. She finally stopped when she saw a small, cute toddler with blonde hair and blue eyes looking and smiling at her from the inside the beautiful flowery box with transparent plastics at the front. The one that stood out among the other children in boxes. 

She bought the child. Named her and raised the child as her own. 

P.S. I love the fluffy and big sized bathroom towel which I got for free from OSC. :P (okay, random LOL)

P.S.S. I've just discovered an awesome female journalist. Saw her name from a journalism student's blog, and googled it. :P

Nellie Bly (May 5, 1864 – January 27, 1922) was the pen name of American pioneer female journalist Elizabeth Jane Cochran. She remains notable for two feats: a record-breaking trip around the world in emulation of Jules Verne's character Phileas Fogg, and an exposé in which she faked insanity to study a mental institution from within. In addition to her writing, she was also an industrialist and charity worker.

(wikipedia, n.d.)

She's really amazing and inspiring, isn't she?! :D 

You could read more from wikipedia or any other sources. 

With that, may peace be upon you and me! (what am I doing here when I'm supposed to study for quiz this Thursday. Okay last post this week. BYE!)

Day 1

I'm feeling a bit homesick. Ahhh.. ;(

The sight of my parents with my two brothers leaving me at the bus station brought despair within me. Just by thinking of them, makes my heart aches for I long for their lively presence in this boring place. >_<

Okay, stop the melodrama.

Today, I skipped the induction programme for Rx Quiz. I was too tired. To be truthful, laziness made up the 50% of the reasons why I was absent. 30% is -tiredness. 20%- no transport jauh gila nak pergi KOS! I'm from the sponsor bureau, I've done my job and I've trained the quiz moderators almost every week without complaints. I have no parts to play in the rehearsal anyway (main agenda of the induction programme) Besides, my other sponsor friends didn't come because they're still in their hometown (Bestnya!) So, give me a break this time, will you? :P

Yes, twas not the characteristics of a  good leader (I'm just a subcom anyway ). Being a good leader has its own limits though. Anyway, I plan to study tonight (read: PLAN). Induction tu sampai malam. >_<

Speaking of a leader, my friend Atiqah Hasman Yusri the 'career woman' had just been elected to become the VICE PRESIDENT for MyPSA (Malaysian Students' Pharmaceutical Assosication) I kid you not! This is really awesome and I'm proud of you! :D 

I went to Megamall with Sufi, Wa and Shakira. Went to Popular Bookstore (Boring, not much variety) to search for 'Jaja and Din' by Noor Suraya. Takde! So I bought Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. I gotta say, the man in the book scares me. The whole plot though lyrical (as it claimed to be), is also dark and disturbing. Humbert Humbert is mental, I tell you. Okay, I shall do a book review on this.

Question: Whoa, you still have time to read novel? *raise one eyebrow*

Answer: Study study jugak. Fiction is important too!

Yes,  it has become one of the necessary ingredients in the formation of 'me'.

That's all, may peace be upon you! 

For the next 6 weeks of lectures

Holiday's almost over. :(

First week's tasks

-2nd Pharmaco PNS quiz (Thursday)

-4th Halaqah session (Thursday)

Then, 3rd National Pharmacy Quiz on weekend (of the same week >_<)

-Help Quiz Moderator

-Write article about the event

Quizzes yang belum buat

Medicinal Chemistry- all THREE QUIZZES!

Physical Pharmacy- another TWO to THREE QUIZZES!

Anti-infective agents- another quiz (Medicinal chemistry aspect)

Pharmacology PNS- another quiz (Medicinal chemistry aspect)

Pharmaceutical Analysis- another TWO QUIZZES

Community Pharmacy Practice- another TWO-THREE QUIZZES!

Maximum number of quizzes to fit it in just FIVE weeks = THIRTEEN! (there might be two to three quizzes in a week, HAHAHAHAHA)

What's more,
Anti-infective assignment+presentation 

UNGS Assignment+ Presentation

Pharmaceutical Analysis Assignment+Presentation

Leadership and Management Assignment+Presentation

Maximum number of assignments to fit in just FIVE weeks = FOUR!

If that's not enough,

Pharmaceutical Analysis- another TWO lab practicals+ reports and THREE vivas!

Medicinal Chemistry- another TWO lab practicals+ reports 

Pharmacology PNS- one lab practical+report

Physical Pharmacy - FOUR lab practicals+reports

Community Pharmacy -another TWO lab practicals+reports

Total number of  lab practicals to fit in just FIVE weeks = ELEVEN lab reports and THREE vivas! 

And....

The last halaqah session. 

Then, REVISION PERIOD and FINAL EXAM comprising almost 100 topics out of those 8 subjects! I'm not exaggerating

And that's the life of an IIUM Pharmacy student. With that, thank you. :)

The Invitation!

Assalamualaikum and hello all! :)

I'm pretty excited because we (the Journalism on Campus crews/New Straits Times' The Torch people) are invited to the 'New Straits Times Young Writers Awards 2011' like serioussslyyy!!!!

Elin Khoo from NST sent the invitation via email. Whoa! I thought that we the 'Torch-ians' from Kuantan are excluded from the invitation list.Because well... Kuantan, kan? We haven't even met the Torch people from Gombak. :P

But then.....

MONDAY?

12th of DECEMBER?

1.00 PM to 6.00 PM

SUBANG? 

SELANGOR!!!

And look at the bottom of the invitation. 

Each Niexter is allowed to bring two family members or a friend ok bye!

Sorry, can't go! We'll be in Kuantan on that date, sitting in the lecture hall of Kulliyyah of Pharmacy, listening to lectures on the pharmacophores of sulfonamides. Eekk.. Plus, I'll be having my Physical Pharmacy Quiz on the same date. 

SAD!!!!

To think that the region's famous journalists, VIPs, VVIPs will be there! Oh no!

Thanks Kuantan! Once in a lifetime opportunity had instantly been blown away! Hmmphh! 

Tagged by Zaty!

Sori Zaty. Lupa pulak nak buat tag awak. 

Rules.

1.You must post these rules.

2.Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.

3.Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.

And create eleven new questions for people you tagged to answer.

4.You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them to the post.

5.Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.

6.No tag backs.

7.No stuff in the tagging section about

11 things about me? 

I think I've done this before. Anywaysss....

1. As for now, I love books more than any other inanimate objects in this world! 

2.I dislike waiting for people and them waiting for me.

3. I don't know how to walk in high heels as I've been wearing flats since...ever! 

4. I'm scared of animals :B (and yet I plan to take Veterinary Pharmacy as elective for final year :O)

5. I dislike unnecessary shopping for clothes. 

6. I wear braces and glasses (nerd!)

7. Tend to show the characteristics of a feminist at times.

8. I was a prefect at school (ketandusan idea nak tulis apa)

9. I love to eat. Just give me any good food! 

10. Internet addict (duh!)

11. I have tumblr. :B

Done! Now questions from Zaty.

1.  Bilakah tarikh lahir anda?

2. Currently you favourie love song. aww. love song ok! hihi

3.  How you define true friend?

4. Macam mana korang handle stress korang eh? Help me

5.  Have anyhing be stolen from you? If yes, what is it?

6.  Kalau diberi peluang untuk ke masa lampau, tahun bilakah anda nak pergi?

7.  Pandai memasak tak? 

8.  Suka makan coklat jenama apakah?

9. Opinion mengenai FB terkini?

10. Macam mana saudari/saudara mengenali diri saya?

11. Bagaimana anda mengenali blog Nurul Zaty ini?

1. 14 October same year as Zaty. :D

2. Yu Jian by Stefanie Sun (Chinese song)

3. True friend = Mother. Perfect definition of true friend. Someone like her :D

4. Don't think too much about it. Between stimulus and response, there are several choices. You could choose your response. ( Stephen R.Covey- 7 Habits of Highly Effective People).

5. Maxis Broadband. LOL.

6.  Zaman nenek moyang untuk trace ancestry. Takde tahun yang spesifik.

7. Still learning. Same goes with studying Pharmacy. Pandai tak Pharmacy? Still learning. 

8. Cadbury

9. Lacks privacy.

10. CFS! :D

11.  CFS! :D (terstumble)

I wish to tag no one. :) 

McDreamy

....in those dreams, we'd talked to each other about many things as if we'd known each other in real life. 

This is weird. 

"We are all a little weird and life is a little weird and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love."

                                          Dr. Seuss

LOL

I'm a Ravenclaw!.

Assalamualaikum and hello all. This seems like a outdated entry but since I don't have anything exciting to write about ; 

I gained early admission to Pottermore last September! And just like other fellow Harry Potter-ians, I'm excited to know what house will I be sorted to. My first preference would be Gryffindor. But ah well, the Sorting Hat knows best, I think. 

So, I'm in....

Yup. Ravenclaw! It's unbelievable. I'm not that smart but maybe my so-called intelligence predominates my other traits. Bravery-nope. I think I'm suited to be in Hufflepuff. Haha.

But in a way, it is kind of predictable since 90% of the 'Which Hogwarts House are you in?' quizzes had placed me in either Ravenclaw or Gryffindor. 

How's my progress so far?

 Here's the answer: 

I've completed the game! :D

Well, sort of. Only the first part is available in Pottermore. It means that we fellow Pottermores will have to wait for the 2nd part which is based on the second book (which will be available around early 2012 or something.. Pfftt!)

While waiting, I should be collecting points for my house by brewing potions, challenging my friends to duels, etc. :P

Tell the world I'm coming home!

Assalamualaikum and hello all! :)

Wow, I seem excited, am I not?
Yes, quite.

Unfortunately, I'm coming home with a cold, caused by oh you evil rhinovirus!

I can't believe it has been 8 weeks/2 months since I've last seen the faces of the people I love. 

Remember the 'Homesick' post? LOL.

I'm not going to study during this one week holiday. :P

But rather, I'm required to do lots of  research for these FOUR assignments.

- Anti-infective seminar: Anti-malarial drugs in pregnancy

-UNGS 2050K- Islam honours women: Theoretical and Practical

-Pharmaceutical Analysis- Flame Atomic Absorption Spectroscopy

-Leadership and Management- Stress Management >__<

So, there's already lots of works! 

Internet at home is super awesome! Can't wait. :D

I want to jalan-jalan with my family and belanja my adiks makan. ;)

Oklah bye. Wish me a safe journey. May peace be upon you!